My Diary Essay, Research Paper
1st September: Today?? was? an?
action? packed? day,?
today? is? the?
day before? I? go?
away. I? was? expecting?
visitors? but? there?
was? a? few? surprises? too.?
first? of? all?
there? was? Master? Boyle, Canon? Mick O? Byrne, the?
lads? and? of? course,? how?
could? I? forget?
the? love? of?
my? life,? Kathy.????????
I?? can?t? believe?
it,? tomorrow? I?
am? going? to? Philadelphia?
I? can?t? wait?
or? can? I ? I? want? to?
go? and? I?
want? to? stay,?
I? want? to? stay? because ???
I? don?t? know?
I?
just? want? another?
chance? with? kathy?
and? I? also? want? to?
be? able? to?
speak? to? and?
see? Kathy, but? in? Philadelphia?
that? is? not?
the? case, I? wish?
I? could? turn?
back?
time, but? I? know?
as? well? as?
Kathy? that? there?
will? never?
be? another? us. I?
want? to? get?
to? Philadelphia? because?
I? can? escape? my? past?
I? can? turn? a? new?
leaf, I? can?
start? from? scratch,?
I? can? get? another? chance?
to? start?
a? new? life,? sounds? good! ????? ??????
Tomorrow? my? da?
has? to? say? something.
Doesn?t? he? Why? does? he?
try?? to? wipe?
out? any? thoughts?
of?? happiness? we? ever? had. Today?
for? example? I?
remembered? one? of? the? happiest? moments?
my? father? and?
I?? ever? had. I?
remembered? we? were?
in? a? blue? fishing? boat?
which? my? father? owned? and?
we? were? fishing?
and we? were? actually?
talking? to? each?
other, and? when? I? questioned? him? about? it? he?
brushed? it? away?
as? if? he? didn?t? know,?
but? something?
tells? me? that?
he? does,? there?
is? a? reason? why? he? isn?t? talking?
to? me. It? is?
as? if? I?ve done? something? to? hurt? him? but?
it? is? nothing? I? can?
fix? because? he?
won?t? tell me? what? it?
is. I? care? for?
him? but? I?
am? not? sure? that? he? loves?
me,? he? has? to? say?
something? tomorrow? to? prove? me? wrong.????? Today?
Madge? organised? for?
?the? lads?? and?
my? so? called? friends?
to? come? to?
my? house? to?
bid? me? farewell,? that? is?
all? well? and?
good? but? would?
they? have? come?
if? Madge?? hadn?t?
told? them? to. Joe??
he? might? have?
came? to? me?
he? is? the? only? one?
of? them? I?
truly? like. Ned? is?
a? liar? and?
Tom? is? a? looks? up?
to? Ned? and? worships? the? ground? that?
he? walks? on. Joe?
like? me? is?
a? realist? he? knows? that?
all? of? us? are? virgins?
and? he? does? not? believe? Tom?s?
lies? for? one?
second.?? ??? Going? to? Philadelphia? could?
make? or? break?
my? life? it? could?
be? a? disaster? or? a?
success. I? just? hope?
it? is? the? right?
decision? because? if?
it? is? not? there? is?
no? way? back. ???? ????????
Master? Boyle? called?
round? for? me ?today, he? was? giving?
me? advise? and?
he? was? wishing? me? luck, he?
is? a? good?
man? at? heart. Master? and? I??
get? on? well,? I? seem?
to?
be? his? only? friend, the? only?
one? he? can? talk? to. God?
bless him. Today? he? expressed? his?
feelings? for me , at? first?
I?
was? shocked? but?
I? realised? that?
he? did? not? want? me? to?
leave. I? am? the?
only? one? he?
can? turn? to?
and? now? I? am?
leaving; His? hug? was?
the? first? time?
I? had? been? hugged?
by? a? man? in? actually? I?
can?t? remember? any? man?
hugging? me? before?
not? even? my?
dad. That? is? a? sad?
story? and? sometimes?
I? used? to? cry? because?
my? dad? didn?t?
treat? me? as?
a? son,? he? didn?t? hug?
me and? he? didn?t?
spend? time? with?
me, didn?t? take? me?
out? and? didn?t?
tell? me? a?
night time?? story? like?
the? other? boys?
dads. I?
used? to? stay?
awake? with? my?
book? hoping? that?
he?
would? come? in?
to? read? me?
to? sleep? instead?
I? cried myself?
to? sleep? quietly. Today? still,? he? doesn?t?
treat? me? as?
his? son.? ????
To? finish? of?
the? day? Katherine?
Doogan? or? should?
I?
say? Katherine? King?
called? round? for?
me, I? was? stunned?
when? I? opened? the? door?
I? just? froze? it? was?
the? last? thing? I?
was? expecting. We?? talked?
for? a? while? a? and?
as? usual? I?
talked? a? load?
of? rubbish. I? still?
love? Kate?
and? the? thing?
I? would? want?
more? than? anything?
is?
to? be? with? Kathy, my? darling?
Kathy. ??????????
?????????
?????So? diary? that? was?
my? day? I? think? this?
is? the? longest? thing?
I? have? written? in? this?
diary, well? it? is?
not? a? surprise?
because? I? had?
so? many? visitors?
today? and? that? was?
because?? today? is?
the? eve? of?
my departure. Well? diary? if?
I? ever? write? in? you?
again? it? will?
be? in? Philadelphia.
Well?? time? for? bed? I?
have? an? early?
start? tomorrow,? goodbye?
Ballybeg, goodbye? lads,
goodbye? Madge,
goodbye? Boyle, goodbye? Father?
and? goodbye? my? darling,
my? love, my? Kathy?..??????????